Extreme makeover: Thinking Edition

Sitting in class right now, blogging - clearly. Man this class is really boring. The professor is great but I'm just not interested in this class. It's a stage managing class and after all these weeks of coming to this class I am convinced that I will NEVER be a stage manager. I wouldn't be able to handle it. Like my professor said at the beginning of the semester (and I'm paraphrasing, not exactly quoting) "You have to be insane to take on the job and sane at the same time to be able to handle it."

In other mini-updates, I did nothing again for Halloween this year. Being temporarily broke is mainly to thank for this. By this time next year I will be in a better place financially. I'm going to send that positive vibe out into the Universe. I just need to learn how to take action with all these affirmations I've been saying to myself lately.

I'm not sure whether I mentioned this earlier, but for almost a month now I have changed the way I think about myself - on purpose. After I reached a boiling point in my life last month, mainly because I've felt lonely at the University and was convinced that everyone didn't like me and that is why I didn't have any social life with them, I grew tired of it and gave myself a little pep talk. I've always felt like no one is interested in getting to know me, ever since I did all the musicals back in my other college. So I sat down and started to think that this could all be nothing but a horrific fiction of negativity that I have created in my mind. I have infected my brain with all this so much that I've given out that energy. Well, I've been saying daily positive affirmations to myself every day for almost a month now, reprogramming the way I think basically, and it has been such a wonderful change. I literally feel like I'm feeding my brain some healthy doses of positive energy. I've expelled all negativity stuff I think people are thinking about me and quickly say my affirmations like they're some sort of prayer.

I've had my little moments where I feel like I'm slipping back to the "negative fiction writing", but I've been good and immediately tell myself to throw away that ridiculous story.

It is still going to take a while but I'm getting there.